....well, that is the idea anyway. My little Oliver is off with his dad for a few days, and that has given me some time to focus on my art. Which also, conveniently functions as self care for me. I wanted to challenge myself to create freely without any expectations on product just for a few days. See what that feels like. I have always been a perfectionist when it comes to my art, and that holds me back sometimes when I am learning new things. I am tuning into to some patience with myself. Enjoying the learning process a bit more. You know what? It has actually been working for me. Consciously dropping some of my expectations, and just having fun has been revolutionary in my practice. Like so many aspects of life, there are so many opinions tied up in conversations surrounding creativity. I have had to just walk away from those, and tune into myself. It was as if I was a whispering bystander in the back of a concert hall of voices telling me what to do, and how to do it. Now I feel like I am on stage.
I have found that these ideas have given me the freedom to experience so much in my life in a different way. I think about Oliver so much when I contemplate "living in the now". My role as his mother is more important to me than anything. Tapping into the joy of that role has never been more at the forefront of my mind. We have all seen a stressed out parent, or been one. How often do you see someone really connecting with their child? Really laughing, and loving. I believe that for me to connect with my son, I have to connect with myself. I understand who I am, and where my value lies, and I go after that. My values lie in having a joyful family first, satisfying work second. Everything else will sort itself out eventually.
